happiness is a choice

i am a firm believer that happiness is a choice

but sometimes i forget that i decided to believe that

i first discovered this in high school

i'm sure that i'm not the only one that thought high school suuuuuuuucked

and was just waiting for graduation to bust out of the prison of anti-morality

but i definitely was not going to last all through senior year in a depressed state of mind

after a mental kick in the butt i learned that 

even when life is not going my way i can still make the most of it and choose to be happy

"fake it 'til you make it" kinda thing

i kinda had this philosophy in cheer too - smile like an idiot until you're smiling for reals

anyways

my life is awesome right now and nowhere near high school status

(even though we both look like we're still in high school)

(ps - this picture was to show how our hairs are the same color, crazy right??)

but holy cowwww what am i doing??

i'm at the point of another mid-college crisis

where i am not enjoying my classes

(well, one i absolutely love) but the rest i'm having a hard time with

adolescent development, the professor reads her slides word for word

which she has copied from the textbook

which i read the night before

what is the point of taking this class again if i can just read the book on my own?

which is SO disappointing because THIS is what i want to be learning and doing in the future

so i just want to be done

i want to stop school, but i want a degree so i won't

i want to change my major to art history, but i don't want to tack on 2 more years of school

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while going through this mental breakdown of not caring-ness

the pretty cool guy in the picture above reminded me

that even when things aren't going my way

i can still make the most it and choose to be happy

i remember in church this past year someone said that happiness is a choice

because it is a consequence of righteous living

so yes, school is not going how i want it to right now

but as long as i am living my life the way my heavenly father wants me to

i can be happy because He will always be there for me and He wants to bless me

it's a comfort to know that everything works out in the end